even before i knew that it needed saving
i have wanted to save the world
or at least felt as though i could
these megalomaniac impulses just come sometimes
and i’m never sure which to follow
or which to trust
everything and nothing,
the great dichotomy
guess i’ll stick with that and listen to everything i can
the question that i have now
after years of thought
and after coming up with the answer
is whether humanity deserves to be saved
after all the horrible things i’ve seen
and heard about
it’s not that i doubt that some people
should be
it is if they all should be
friends, family and
the people we care for certainly
but what of the rest
who would you pick
and if you could pick, how would you change things
so they wouldn’t end up just as bad or worse
in the end i just gave up
all this thinking was giving me headaches
and the stress was getting to me
tell the world to save itself
i can’t be bothered anymore
after finding the answer i forgot the question
and decided that was the course i’d set
i’d just settle down into the nothing
and watch everything go by
footnote:
defenestrated
February 10th, 2006 at 8:58 pm
Now that, dear fellow riders of the planet, was a conscious post. John Lennon wrote a song about this feeling. Each of us has sung it. And surely Hegel - another of the cognoscenti? - sang it, for it was he who pointed out that the beautiful thing about thesis and antithesis is the numinous way the two work together , warp and weft, to create synthesis .
And another: “‘Existence is only real when it is conscious to somebody. That is why the Creator needs conscious man even though, from sheer unconsciousness, he would like to prevent him from becoming conscious.’ Because Job has seen Yahweh’s amoral nature, Yahweh is obliged to change. In psychological terms, because the Self has been seen by the ego, the Self’s consciousness has been promoted. In this way, God - or the Self - needs man.” (Edward Edinger, “The Creation Of Consciousness”, p. 55)
And another: “There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
…a time to tear down and a time to build,
…a time to weep and a time to laugh,
…a time to mourn and a time to dance,
…a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
…a time to search and a time to give up,
…a time to tear and a time to mend,
…a time to be silent and a time to speak,
…a time to love and a time to hate,
…a time for war and a time for peace. (Ecclesiastes)
February 11th, 2006 at 7:15 pm
Great post, I definitely feel this same stream of consciousness from time to time. I think all the people who save themselves deserve to be saved - those people who are courageous enough and conscious enough to rise above the negativity, the pitfalls of humanity’s current existence, deserve to survive. This of course has and will happen for different people at different times, and some not at all. Some will fight it with all their will, all their fear. These are the people that we cannot save - they have to be willing to change and rise above fear or there is nothing we can do for them.
February 14th, 2006 at 10:04 pm
My own thoughts are that no one person can save the world. We all play our own small part in doing what “feels right”. Small + small = big difference!
A recent subject of discussion with my own small group had to do with prayer.
My personal statement is that prayer CAN make a difference, but only when those in need of prayerful help take action and make a commitment to help themselves.