wow, way too much silence from the jester’s end of the world
this blogging thing began with the most impossible aims imaginable
a pure reflection of my general take on life;
namely that unless i’m doing something to make this world better,
i’m wasting my time
all my dreams scare me
at night
i toss and turn
wondering
what it’s worth
howling into the void
but i’ve studied revolutionary history
and i know that as soon as you stand a chance
of making change
you can wind up wearing cross-hairs
and it’s getting harder to delude myself
that i can be who i want to be
i swear i see lies in the bathroom mirror
when i cannot tear my eyes away
from themselves
even when the vision blurs
and the man i see
looks more foolish
with every second i waste
October 10th, 2006 at 7:45 am
maybe its time to let someone else look, others will see things far differently
and you will not look foolish to them.
October 13th, 2006 at 4:53 pm
it’s not a ‘them’ whom i care about looking foolish too,
it’s myself . . .
and i hope there are alot of other people looking
and i know we’ll all see differently
but turning wide-open eyes
on this world
is terrifying